
It's raining. Much as I'd like to believe otherwise, weather does get me down. Especially rain.
I lugged home an inkjet printer today, but I haven't set it up yet. I should be heading out the the Smart Museum now to help with the stuff. All the energy I had at the beginning of the day feel zapped.
I'm also debating whether a decision I made was a stupid one. There's this class that looked really interesting, so I dropped my art class to sign up for that class. But I might not enjoy it that much, plus Joanne's in that class, and my art class was really hard to get into. I don't know. It sounds like a really cool class, but I'm worried that Joanne might be seeing too much of me. There's a limiting quotient for everyone, and I think I'm nearing that on Joanne's tolerance level. I think mom is right. I need to be more refined and controlled about these things. Usually, if I have a good feeling about someone, I would just totally open up and say whatever comes to my mind, which then tends to scare/bizarre people, which then would make things weird. Also, I always think people mind too much about certain things, when they actually don't mind at all. There's then the things that I didn't think they'd mind, but they totally do. I think it partly comes from being adapted to a very different moral structure while growing up.
I spent the last 3 hours on the internet. God, I need to stop. This thing takes my focused thoughts and energy and scatters it into a million little bits of information. Now I just have a bunch of loose threads running around.