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summercomfort) wrote2019-04-18 01:35 pm
summercomfort) wrote2019-04-18 01:35 pm
Expansive thoughts
On day 4 of Spring Break, I've finally hit the point where my brain feels like it can think expansive thoughts.
- I feel like I have a good grip on the entirety of the Rutabaga Project. As in: I think I will wrap it up with volume 3, tentatively entitled "Personhood", and finish it off with the fact that Rutabaga is now newly age 3 and I can reason with her and she's her own person, and therefore no longer part of the universal-ish baby experience. The rest of her life is about her, and so I think that's a fair stopping point. I should probably also add a few comics to the very beginning, the pregnancy times, and then... I'll be done!
- At five months post-tumblr-deletion, I still struggle to think about tumblr without bitterness at there cavalier deletion of my entire account, but I think I'm ready to start making my peace with it. Or at least, derive what I want to do with it based off of some First Principles (I'm probably using that wrong, but I like the idea of clarifying my core objectives/premises and then figuring out what I should do about it.)
To whit:
- There are 3 things that I love seeing on tumblr, sorted by what I'd tag them: #humans, #ilearnedsomething, and #qualityshitposts . Right now my likes are clogged up with a bunch of these that I haven't really reblogged, but since reblogging is the only way of sharing these on tumblr, I should probably do that.
- I want my fanwork to be based in AO3, but I haven't decided whether I want to post to tumblr, twitter, etc. And if I do, do I post its entirety or just the first page? Maybe notes and likes and reblogs don't actually matter. So lemme call it here: I'll post the entirety, but with each page signed (nope, I haven't been signing any of my stuff), and with a note saying that I'll only respond/interact on AO3.
- I don't... really interact with fandom anymore??? Or rather -- fandom-related tumblr posts are funny but don't always fall under the 3 categories listed above. I really don't have time to spend 2-3 hours a day interacting with fandom, be it via scrolling through tumblr, twitter, DW, Hubzilla, or various Discords. So the thing I'm uncertain about is ... is there a fandom interaction that I still can and want to do? I'm good at modding, but tbh, that "get shit organized" energy really needs to be put towards Chinese School. I want to read good fics and draw pictures for them. Do I still want to draw my own fan comics? Or write my own fanfiction? I find it harder to figure out fan comics that I want to draw -- the impetus seems to be missing. I don't know whether it's because, 5 years into this, there's really nothing left except AUs? Or is it that, without spending 2+ hours on fandom each day, I no longer have the stream of inspirational source material? I think I'm happiest when I'm having cool convos with fandom creators, but let's be real -- these are all aspirational. When it really happens, I'm probably going to hide in a low-social-energy black hole. So... I dunno about that. (Maybe just get people to send me emails, b/c that's still my favorite asynchronous conversation system.) There's always stuff that I wanna start, but maybe it's good to let myself lay fallow for a while.
- What I really like about Patreon is its subscription system for highly interested followers. As in, whatever content I push to Patreon, those people have opted in to, and will easily receive it in their email. And part of how I can tell that they are highly interested is because they've put their money on the line. But are they only interested in my fandom stuff, or in my other stuff, too? As I dial back from fandom stuff, what should I put there instead? I feel like it should be a place where I show what I'm currently working on, and share process stuff and/or tutorials. Should I post nsfw stuff on there? (maybe have a tier for that?) Should I maintain the monthly model? (I feel like if I don't, I'll never post...) Should it be a centralized place where I crosspost everything? How is it different from DW or AO3? (Different from AO3 because I can talk about process there and have more methods of interaction. Different from DW because DW is a small, closed system that is hard to opt in to.) There's all this talk about "Build My Audience", but what is "My Audience?" Do I want to build an audience? Who are they? Going back to my original goals, maybe I should use Patreon to be a place to be meditative about my creative projects once a month. And if I have anything that I'm going to post to AO3, I can post to Patreon a day early. And any process posts I post to Patreon, I can cross-post to DW a day later.
- As Rutabaga becomes more of a person I need to start thinking of how to integrate a third person's own desires into our family unit. It's less "childcare" and more "what interactions/activities do I want with this person?"
- I feel like I have a good grip on the entirety of the Rutabaga Project. As in: I think I will wrap it up with volume 3, tentatively entitled "Personhood", and finish it off with the fact that Rutabaga is now newly age 3 and I can reason with her and she's her own person, and therefore no longer part of the universal-ish baby experience. The rest of her life is about her, and so I think that's a fair stopping point. I should probably also add a few comics to the very beginning, the pregnancy times, and then... I'll be done!
- At five months post-tumblr-deletion, I still struggle to think about tumblr without bitterness at there cavalier deletion of my entire account, but I think I'm ready to start making my peace with it. Or at least, derive what I want to do with it based off of some First Principles (I'm probably using that wrong, but I like the idea of clarifying my core objectives/premises and then figuring out what I should do about it.)
To whit:
- There are 3 things that I love seeing on tumblr, sorted by what I'd tag them: #humans, #ilearnedsomething, and #qualityshitposts . Right now my likes are clogged up with a bunch of these that I haven't really reblogged, but since reblogging is the only way of sharing these on tumblr, I should probably do that.
- I want my fanwork to be based in AO3, but I haven't decided whether I want to post to tumblr, twitter, etc. And if I do, do I post its entirety or just the first page? Maybe notes and likes and reblogs don't actually matter. So lemme call it here: I'll post the entirety, but with each page signed (nope, I haven't been signing any of my stuff), and with a note saying that I'll only respond/interact on AO3.
- I don't... really interact with fandom anymore??? Or rather -- fandom-related tumblr posts are funny but don't always fall under the 3 categories listed above. I really don't have time to spend 2-3 hours a day interacting with fandom, be it via scrolling through tumblr, twitter, DW, Hubzilla, or various Discords. So the thing I'm uncertain about is ... is there a fandom interaction that I still can and want to do? I'm good at modding, but tbh, that "get shit organized" energy really needs to be put towards Chinese School. I want to read good fics and draw pictures for them. Do I still want to draw my own fan comics? Or write my own fanfiction? I find it harder to figure out fan comics that I want to draw -- the impetus seems to be missing. I don't know whether it's because, 5 years into this, there's really nothing left except AUs? Or is it that, without spending 2+ hours on fandom each day, I no longer have the stream of inspirational source material? I think I'm happiest when I'm having cool convos with fandom creators, but let's be real -- these are all aspirational. When it really happens, I'm probably going to hide in a low-social-energy black hole. So... I dunno about that. (Maybe just get people to send me emails, b/c that's still my favorite asynchronous conversation system.) There's always stuff that I wanna start, but maybe it's good to let myself lay fallow for a while.
- What I really like about Patreon is its subscription system for highly interested followers. As in, whatever content I push to Patreon, those people have opted in to, and will easily receive it in their email. And part of how I can tell that they are highly interested is because they've put their money on the line. But are they only interested in my fandom stuff, or in my other stuff, too? As I dial back from fandom stuff, what should I put there instead? I feel like it should be a place where I show what I'm currently working on, and share process stuff and/or tutorials. Should I post nsfw stuff on there? (maybe have a tier for that?) Should I maintain the monthly model? (I feel like if I don't, I'll never post...) Should it be a centralized place where I crosspost everything? How is it different from DW or AO3? (Different from AO3 because I can talk about process there and have more methods of interaction. Different from DW because DW is a small, closed system that is hard to opt in to.) There's all this talk about "Build My Audience", but what is "My Audience?" Do I want to build an audience? Who are they? Going back to my original goals, maybe I should use Patreon to be a place to be meditative about my creative projects once a month. And if I have anything that I'm going to post to AO3, I can post to Patreon a day early. And any process posts I post to Patreon, I can cross-post to DW a day later.
- As Rutabaga becomes more of a person I need to start thinking of how to integrate a third person's own desires into our family unit. It's less "childcare" and more "what interactions/activities do I want with this person?"
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