Last Entry?

[summercomfort]

Okay, so I have a problem of self control when it comes to the internet and fanfiction. So my parents decided to help me with this addiction by prohibiting from going online at all. ::shrug:: I suppose drastic action is justified on their accounts. Gods, they probably didn't sleep last night. ;_; I shouldn't be causing my parents such anguish.

And I *do* spend way too much time online. Livejournal takes about 1 hour every day, what with reading friends entries, writing long comments, and then ranting about my life. Email only takes about half an hour every day, sometimes less. Fanfic reading, however, has grown to be a problem. It is so easy to get rolled into a story. It is all too easy to succomb to fanfiction when I'm tired at say midnight. It's just past the time of healthy sleep, and the body falls into this zombie-like trance, which is *definitely* not good for me. I've been trying to control the fanfic reading, but that just results in binges once or twice a week. Actually, the past few weeks I've been reading real books, which is an interesting experience, but I still stay up late to read them, which is what my parents are worried about. There's just something ... right ... about lying in bed at midnight and reading LoR for an hour or so.

I'm quite glad for the incentive to stop the fanfic reading. I think I realized a few weeks back how much of a toll it was having on my life. So maybe now I can do other things. Like read. Or do webpage design. Oh wait, I won't have access to ftp. Damn. And I can't even upload any pictures and whatnot.... Great, how am I supposed to send Tochi a happy b-day thingy if I can't use my email?

See, that's the thing. I don't object to not browsing the web, because there's not much I really do anyway (but... SoF! dnptf! wah.). However, life will be very hard without email at home, because that means I can't send long informative emails to the SciOly list on Saturday nights, I can't send CompSci homework back and forth from school, and I can't ftp anything. (There goes the use of my digital locker!) And most of all, I'll miss my daily rants on livejournal and reading the LJs of everyone else. Yeah, it takes up a hour of my time, but it's been really interesting to see the different personalities everyone assumes on LJ, and the daily boring rants have been *very* therapeutic... I find myself thinking about what to write on LJ whenever anything happens. -_-;;; Oh well, I guess I'll just keep notepad journal. ::sigh:: But anyway, this is probably my last public entry, as a sort of heads up to y'all.

I'm hoping to petition my email and LJ rights back. Wish me luck!

P.S. I'm also a little worried about what would happen in college with the T1 connections. >_<. Is it better to let this run its natural progression (b/c I've really lost my interest in internet. It's really an interest in fanfiction that I have to conquer), or is it better to just stop everything now?

P.P.S Dammit, I was planning on some scanning and some Chinese translation junk this weekend, too! (being the first weekend in a long time without Science Olympiad.)

P.P.S. Oh crap, I need to email/ftp my CompSci work home. Better go work on that petition, ne? Or should I just stay afterschool to work on CompSci program?

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[conejita.livejournal.com]

"There's just something ... right ... about lying in bed at midnight and reading LoR for an hour or so." >blink< but that's what I did last night >when I told thor I was going to bed< I still consider Tolkein dry, but hell it's better than plato ^^;;; you realize tho even if you're not online you'll find some way to do something to releave the stress of school (or something of the sort, people just need alone time) that is going to cause you unhealthy hours unless you schedule it in, course I can't lecture on healthy sleeping hours, from my experimentations, more sleep makes me sleepier, 4 hours is enough to make be grumpy but unconscious enough for me to not realize I'm grumpy so I feel perfectly fine >except for shaking< 6 hours makes me just want to sleep more, 9 hours is the same, but then I sleep all day afterwards (or is that 6 hours) oh I dunno.. I dunno when you'll read or get this, but the fact of the matter is there's only so much tolkien one can read in one sitting so if you start earlier you'll get more sleep ^^ >really I promise< ack! off to bio and cs
PS >you really don't write long rants in lj<