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summercomfort) wrote2015-07-15 04:32 pm
summercomfort) wrote2015-07-15 04:32 pm
Batten down the hatches
Okay guys, this is it! I did a blood pregnancy test (wow that sounds metal, like some sort of blood sacrifice. When in fact it's me going down to the kaiser, waiting 2 minutes, and getting my blood drawn.) Anyways, the results: I have 87 units of hCG. (Do we care what the units are? Not particularly. But here's more info if you wanna know.)
And you know how I like making charts as a way of alleviating stress? So I went back to my previous two pregnancy/miscarriages, and made a little chart of hCG levels and time of miscarriage, as best as I can figure. :) Miscarriage #1 kicked in in the 3rd week after conception, and miscarriage #2 kicked in at the 2nd week after conception, so the next 2 weeks are gonna be the test -- if this weird cellular growth lasts the next 2 weeks, then we'll be going into uncharted territory. (Yesterday while driving home I imagined myself having a preggers belly and laughed at the ludicrous mental image.)
Anyways, I'm pretty sure I'm gonna skip going to China this Friday, since the China trip spans exactly the previously tried-and-true Danger Zone. (Then again, it's probably danger zone all the way down, so ...)
Also, the hCG number to beat for "making it past miscarriage #2" is 100, and for "making it past miscarriage #1 is 1200. I'm currently at 87, so hopefully the first one is doable! :D
(Man, looking at my calendar from Feb and Aug 2013, I was a busy and stressed little bee! Even though we have a product launch (also in 2 weeks, heh), my baseline stress level is waaaaay lower.)
And yeah, I'm gonna keep folks updated here. The first time society was like "don't tell anyone, it's rude", and the second time my parents were like "ssssh, don't tell anybody, it'll jinx it." I was thinking about this on the drive home today, and ... I *want* to talk about it? Talking about calms me. I'm not expending extra emotional effort carrying around this Big Secret or whatever. Like, hey, I'm currently 80% pregnant. In a few days I hope to be 100% pregnant. And in a few weeks, I hope to *stay* 100% pregnant. It's like planting a garden or something -- sure, disaster might befall the plants, but you don't go around hiding the fact that you just started a garden...
I mean, I'm not going to yell it to everyone on tumblr or whatever, just like I wouldn't go around telling everyone I meet that I started a garden. But still, nope, no secrecy here.
And you know how I like making charts as a way of alleviating stress? So I went back to my previous two pregnancy/miscarriages, and made a little chart of hCG levels and time of miscarriage, as best as I can figure. :) Miscarriage #1 kicked in in the 3rd week after conception, and miscarriage #2 kicked in at the 2nd week after conception, so the next 2 weeks are gonna be the test -- if this weird cellular growth lasts the next 2 weeks, then we'll be going into uncharted territory. (Yesterday while driving home I imagined myself having a preggers belly and laughed at the ludicrous mental image.)
Anyways, I'm pretty sure I'm gonna skip going to China this Friday, since the China trip spans exactly the previously tried-and-true Danger Zone. (Then again, it's probably danger zone all the way down, so ...)
Also, the hCG number to beat for "making it past miscarriage #2" is 100, and for "making it past miscarriage #1 is 1200. I'm currently at 87, so hopefully the first one is doable! :D
(Man, looking at my calendar from Feb and Aug 2013, I was a busy and stressed little bee! Even though we have a product launch (also in 2 weeks, heh), my baseline stress level is waaaaay lower.)
And yeah, I'm gonna keep folks updated here. The first time society was like "don't tell anyone, it's rude", and the second time my parents were like "ssssh, don't tell anybody, it'll jinx it." I was thinking about this on the drive home today, and ... I *want* to talk about it? Talking about calms me. I'm not expending extra emotional effort carrying around this Big Secret or whatever. Like, hey, I'm currently 80% pregnant. In a few days I hope to be 100% pregnant. And in a few weeks, I hope to *stay* 100% pregnant. It's like planting a garden or something -- sure, disaster might befall the plants, but you don't go around hiding the fact that you just started a garden...
I mean, I'm not going to yell it to everyone on tumblr or whatever, just like I wouldn't go around telling everyone I meet that I started a garden. But still, nope, no secrecy here.