summercomfort | (no subject)

Oh DW/LJ you are so much better for my life and mental health than tumblr, whose format breeds obsession.

With most of the things I obsess over there's always this tug-of-war modulation process that roughly goes as such:
1) I spend a chunk of time doing nothing else, and I really sink into it for 2-3 days.
2) I intellectually recoil from that and make vows and plans to dial back. This usually works for 3-5 days
3) The id part of me retaliates by diving further into the obsession. This relapse usually lasts 2-4 days.
4) Eventually even that part of me is sufficiently sated that it allows itself to be moderated.
5) I completely abandon the obsession for about a week. (If I don't do that, the obsession continues out of habit.)
6) When I return to it, it is no longer an obsession.

So today I think I finally got through step 4. In the morning in the midst of prepping for the taiko performance, I spent about a hour writing a ficlet that I liked (because it has history). Then after getting back from taiko at 7pm, I spent about 3 hours this evening just scrolling through tumblr and looking at gifsets, even when there wasn't anything new. I believe that's the very definition of sated.

Now I'm processing and prepping for tomorrow!

To Do List:

Tomorrow:
- Grade 8 essays
- Finish India PPT and finish planning the new Violence unit
- Finish dialoguing the 3 Tisquantum pages so that I can send it to my beta reader

Tuesday:
- Grade 8 essays
- Laptop/tech setup for AP test proctoring
- practice proctoring, lots of Chinese School work in the evening