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summercomfort) wrote2004-09-12 07:14 pm
summercomfort) wrote2004-09-12 07:14 pm
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General feeling of bleh... mired in incompetence, stupidity, hopelessness, being a disappointment, stuck in a rut, in too deep, unable to connect, petty feelings, feeling petty... My fortune cookie says "You will always have good luck in your personal affairs", to which I say hah hah. I feel like I only have 4 years to live and I'm wasting them big time. Incompetence and pettiness. I'm gonna leave everyone eventually and nothing will amount to anything. College is ending too fast.
What kind of fool puts sarcastic fortunes in cookies?
College isn't forever, but neither are ruts. You'll get through it hey?
::best wishes::
Re: What kind of fool puts sarcastic fortunes in cookies?
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College isn't forever, but you have lots of stuff to do after college. Your life is ending then- you'll be able to be on your own. I know your parents want you to go and run Chinese school, but you don't have to do that right out of college! Go to grad school, get a job, whatever you want to do. Be like Isaac and bum around from city to city, or do what my dad did and be a migrant farm worker for a year. You can come live with me, whereever I happen to be at the time, or Joanne, or Isaac if he's settled down by then. More life experience will make you a better teacher and administrator, so you won't even have to feel like you're letting down your parents. And you haven't wasted your college time at all, ne? You have friends, people who love you, and you've learned lots of neat things and how to live on your own. Yoiu won't keep in touch with everyone or remember everything, but you'll never get rid of some of us, and as for the learning, I'll bet that in twenty years you'll still be able to hold an intelligent debate on canon formation- a useful skill for a teacher or historian, and the sort of thing that never hurts to keep in reserve. So be happy now, and know that as time progresses, you'll have more freedom and resources to keep yourself happy and probably even be happier. Besides, your girlfriend and all the other people who love you will be sad if you're not happy, so be happy out of guilt! Wait, that doesn't work, does it? Maa ne. But I've the "meh" lj icon far too much. I want to see the "hee!" icon more. Otherwise when I see you tomorrow, there will have to be tickling. You know Isaac will help me, too.
Hmm, encouragement, guilt, and threats. Hopefully one of those will cheer you up a bit, even if it's just to laugh at me.
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And here I was just going to slap you around a little bit and say "get over it, you'll feel miles better once you get out of your parents' house."
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Well, "meh" is how I usually feel when I'm LJ-ing. I tend to save my "hee!"s for other situations.