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summercomfort) wrote2004-03-21 12:36 am
summercomfort) wrote2004-03-21 12:36 am
Well, it's here
Spring Break.
In Chicago.
After the hectic craziness of last quarter, it's almost weird to settle down like this and say, "hello Sushu, long time no see!" I feel things cooling down, I'm getting more anal and demanding and self-centered. There's a general solidarity working into my bones. It's weird, not actively caring about other people, or worrying about classes, or having to interact. It's like trying to stuff slightly bloated feet back into your shoes after a loong plane ride. It'll feel good once it fits in there, but a little squeezing is required. A re-centering of sorts.
Then again, this break isn't just me. Kim's staying in the apartment for the break, and Isaac is just downstairs. Of course, unlike Joanne and Kim, who get along decently with each other, Isaac and Kim do not. And I shouldn't bring in someone that makes Kim uncomfortable. However, I do want to spend some time with Isaac over break.
It's interesting, but with Alexis gone, we have settled into an easy friendship. Like the girlfriend type I have with Joanne. He is just someone that I enjoy spending time with, who I understand and appreciate. Before last quarter, there was less understanding, and also this physical gender barrier. I always feel bad that my girlfriends (not to be confused with g/f) get all the hugs and pats and guy friends don't because of this stupid thing. Like, I can go out on a dinner and movie with Joanne, but if I went on a dinner and a movie with a guy, it's automatically a date? But now, it's a jovial comraderie, a girlfriend level connection, which I'm quite happy about. On the other hand, the interaction has come to a point where I start worrying that I'm being annoying just by being present so much.
But anyway, this break has much potential.
In Chicago.
After the hectic craziness of last quarter, it's almost weird to settle down like this and say, "hello Sushu, long time no see!" I feel things cooling down, I'm getting more anal and demanding and self-centered. There's a general solidarity working into my bones. It's weird, not actively caring about other people, or worrying about classes, or having to interact. It's like trying to stuff slightly bloated feet back into your shoes after a loong plane ride. It'll feel good once it fits in there, but a little squeezing is required. A re-centering of sorts.
Then again, this break isn't just me. Kim's staying in the apartment for the break, and Isaac is just downstairs. Of course, unlike Joanne and Kim, who get along decently with each other, Isaac and Kim do not. And I shouldn't bring in someone that makes Kim uncomfortable. However, I do want to spend some time with Isaac over break.
It's interesting, but with Alexis gone, we have settled into an easy friendship. Like the girlfriend type I have with Joanne. He is just someone that I enjoy spending time with, who I understand and appreciate. Before last quarter, there was less understanding, and also this physical gender barrier. I always feel bad that my girlfriends (not to be confused with g/f) get all the hugs and pats and guy friends don't because of this stupid thing. Like, I can go out on a dinner and movie with Joanne, but if I went on a dinner and a movie with a guy, it's automatically a date? But now, it's a jovial comraderie, a girlfriend level connection, which I'm quite happy about. On the other hand, the interaction has come to a point where I start worrying that I'm being annoying just by being present so much.
But anyway, this break has much potential.
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I'm glad break is working out, if somewhat oddly. I miss you!