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summercomfort ([personal profile] summercomfort) wrote2017-07-09 03:59 pm

3 weeks left

Faculty orientation starts Aug 10. I don't feel ready at all. I'm slowly wrapping up all the work that I currently have, and even though I feel like I'm working all the time, I also feel like I've done nothing.

Was Independence Day only 5 days ago? It feels like forever.

Plus the baby is sick again, so even though it's probably due to a multitude of compounding factors, I can't but help like I could have done more. Wiped her hands more frequently. Adjusted her layers more frequently. Watched her 24/7, etc. Of course, it's not rational, and I don't want to hover. But it's also hard, to watch the baby suffer, when there's this niggling feeling that said suffering could have been avoided. (But at what cost? I don't want to cut her off from all human contact. And the temperature this summer has been very variable. And I *have* to be able to trust her to others' care, be that my parents, Hoosband, or, in the future, the daycare people.)

So I keep going.

I've wrapped up a lot of my fandom stuff in anticipation of school starting, which feels very good. There's a few things left (3 unfinished fics, some add-ons to wrangle, some mailing to do), but already I'm feeling the gears shifting away from fandom. I've got some more ideas of things to draw for The Rutabaga Project, I should get sbaycomics straightened out enough to apply for ECCC, I need to start lesson prepping for the new school year, etc etc.

On the work side, I'm looking forward to having some solid work days. I think I can get all of my work done if I can just focus for a while. (Of course, said focus is easier when I'm not short on sleep due to baby illness or too many things on the brain...)

But anyways, slowly, bit by bit, I'll get there. August 10th. Then I'll only have 1 or 2 things on my brain, instead of 10.
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[personal profile] minoanmiss 2017-07-10 01:36 am (UTC)(link)
Babyhaving comes with thoughts like that. You are Doing The Best You Can and her immune system is very strong right now.